(FYI Feel free to read my little thoughts/updates, or just skip to the bottom for the giveaway ;) )
We've had some cozy rainy days in the last two weeks in Boulder, and I have LOVED it. It was a little funny to see snow settle in around the blossoms and blooms of the trees and the flowers, but I guess that's April in Colorado for ya. It felt nostalgic to me, because last year in April I had two visits from family, and it snowed in and around their times here. It feels good to have memories tied to the calendar year, it makes me feel a little more grounded.
But the calendar loop has also made me remember that a year ago, I thought my life would look a little different. I thought we'd be farther along in certain areas (friendships, job stuff, house savings, travels). So now I've found myself having to reconcile all those expectations.
And what I've decided to do is to actively, deliberately, take a break from my plans and expectations for the future. I have not been able to disassociate them with worry, fear and disappointment. The things I'm looking forward to are GOOD THINGS, but they're becoming sources of negativity. I've been looking at the clock, at the calendar, and feeling uneasy. Worrying that I'm not on the right path. Worried that I'm getting older and time is slipping away, that I'm not seizing the day. I have this feeling that I should always be doing something else - if I'm saving money, I feel like I should be having an adventure or experience. If I'm spending, I feel guilty for not saving for the future. And round and round those feelings go.
So I'm taking a break from the hyper-analyzing and just letting myself chill for a bit. That's my focus this month.
Something that I'm choosing to represent this to myself is my JORD watch. I have this gorgeous wood watch with a dark blue analog face. Traditional. Timeless. It feels fresh for spring, but I know it will fit in every season. I'm using it as a little representation to stop worrying about the future. Things will happen when they happen, in God's timing, or the universe's, whichever one you believe.
For me, this little watch is my little bow tied to my finger that reminds me to pray, to trust instead of fear, to choose contentment. I'm putting down my Fitbit, which is always buzzing with incoming calls, texts, and reminders to step it up. Instead, I'm wearing this watch (I chose the Reece walnut and navy ) as a reminder to be still.
And something that I'm so so so grateful for, is that the kind folks at JORD have offered to do a little giveaway just for my people!! Yay.
You can enter this giveaway for a chance to win $100 off your OWN gorgeous watch! I know my friend Blaire was eyeing this emerald goodie, and Jake's got his eyes on quite a few of the men's options (he actually wore my watch to work one day and I freaked out thinking it was lost).
I hope you win! Thanks for sticking with me and I hope and pray that you continue to see time as a gift and not as a cause for worry. I'm hoping the same thing for myself.
This post was sponsored by JORD wood watches, but all opinions are my own.